Parenting is a number of things. It’s rewarding, it’s unbelievable, it’s well, it is HARD!!
I don’t know if its just because I have had a pretty mind blowing week with work issues that have been very hard on me, but lately I have found being a mom pretty darn hard.
Unfortunately lately, and more often times that not as of late, I’ve found that my fuse is blown. I’m yelling. Alot. To the point that my 6.5 year old pointed it out to me the other day. “Mommy, why are you yelling?” And I had to stop whatever it was that I was doing to think about why. I don’t even realize it sometimes. The tone in my voice just goes up, I get frustrated about something, and BAM, off I go.
I’ve given myself time outs before. Gone up to my room, shut the door and just sit on the floor and breathe. I do it in the car driving the kids to school….DEEP BREATHS.
Sometimes I think its because I take on too much. I work full time (from home), I get the kids ready every morning, most nights, breakfasts, lunches, dinners…really I’m on the go from about 7am to 8pm. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I have it bad. There are worse things in life and I know alot of other people going through WAY worse things than I describe here. I also know most people work outside the house and work harder and longer hours than me (like my husband), but still, there is something that is making it seem, well, hard.
As written in my previous post, my 3 year old is getting the best of me. He is so cute and cuddly when he wants to be. Like this morning when he came in my bed to wake me up and planted a kiss on my lips and uttered the words “my mommy”. So precious right? But not 10 minutes later he’s hitting me because he refuses to put on his long sleeve shirt (that he picked out by the way).
Okay I know it now feels like I’m just ranting and venting and complaining. But this is my blog and my outlet to do so, so…
Perhaps as things get a little easier on the work front, my mood will be lifted and I won’t get frustrated so easily. I mean, I know my kids are just being kids! Thats who they are and really, they are the best things in my life.
So while parenting is hard at times, I can make sure to breathe and let the good times happen more often then the bad.
